Friday, April 21, 2017

New Moon Taurus 4/26/17 Meditation/Manifesto: The Body Always Wins.

Preface: Before I go on to revel in the palace of the body, know that I include the mind. As far as I’m concerned the mind exists in the body. Living this concept is a constant practice. We’ve all had a lot of conditioning to regard the two as separate, contentious entities. I think the mind is the part of the body that connects it to the abstract idea of time, providing context and narrative. They’re always connected for better or worse.

The body. The meat. The corpo (body) REAL. The matter. In the earthy world of Taurus, only matter matters. The fire signs can keep their inspirations, water their emotions, and air their ideas. The world of Taurus springs from the soil. It’s WILD-life, not the brainchild of city planners and scientists. Taurus is the all natural, all sensing skin we live in. It’s the material…in every sense of the word. We can touch material. It’s 3D, and therefore real. Taurus likes “real” because it likes security—to feel solid ground with its body, luxuriate in the bounty of nature. Simple, right? How do we fuck this up so badly?

The body works best when it’s prioritized. We get into trouble when the body becomes a slave to our ideas about how we think it should be. The mind manufactures a million stories, the body only one: I survive. There is no one way the body should move, look, feel, perform, and it really has no meaning and yet it IS you. It’s how you’re recognized and how you recognize everything in your world. It’s your signifier and interface. You can do your best to outsmart it, hack it, whip it into shape, or beat it into submission, but the body will always get its way in the end. Like the bull, Taurus’ symbol, complicate and fuss with this sweet, simple animal at your peril.

Your body will always tell you how to survive, heal, protect, and nourish yourself. Touch is nervous system nourishment. Movement is tissue nourishment. Rest, food, and water nourish all of our combustive/electro-chemical systems.

A body's purpose is not to be trained, decorated, manicured, "fit," "well," disciplined, in service of the will, sacrificed for spirit, or strengthened to bolster a fragile ego. Your body is not an excuse, therefore it should not be loathed. It is not what's keeping you from love, happiness, or transcendence (btw all that magical stuff happens when we are most IN our natural bodies and closest to the earth). Most of all the body was not meant to be abandoned (Taurus stays put). And, we leave ourselves all the time; whenever we indulge in the numbing extremes of physical pleasures and pain, give our agency to others, and thoughtlessly follow rules we had no hand in creating. It happens every time we turn a coach, teacher, doctor, lover, advertisement, or guru into any kind of authority, and value their interpretation of our bodies over our own. We leave ourselves whenever we chase fairy tale carrots dangled in front of our big brains that promise greatness if we adhere to a system, alter our chemistry, or feel *this* feeling, but not *that* feeling. We’re wired to feel ALL the feelings. It’s how we know what to feed ourselves. A lot of us use chemicals and teachers to help us do this. No harm in that, though intent plays a huge role in how that works for you. If we’re working with a guide or a drug in an effort to inquire about ourselves, and further inhabit our bodies, that’s very different than using those aides to give us quick answers or take us away from ourselves.

So much has been designed to dismantle our connection to our body, feel shitty about ourselves, then try to sell us back our confidence, vitality, and sexuality. You can’t buy what’s already yours. We are able to outsource everything our body was meant to hungry to do. Instead of using our bodies to navigate wilderness, we follow maps of routes that have been paved in cities designed for convenience and efficiency. Instead of physical play, lovemaking, and close combat, we go to gyms, watch porn, use weapons and snipe at each other on Twitter. When we don’t fight, play, and love each other with our bodies we stop recognizing ourselves, and ourselves in others. Then we feel separate. Taurus doesn't do separate, it’s ruled by Venus, the planet that joins.

This new moon is asking you to experience and demonstrate loyalty to your natural self. We do not need to master the body, undo all the “damage,” or fix what’s broken. We’re not broken. Worst-case scenario, we’ve unknowingly made some connections that aren’t working in our best interest. Big deal. Connect it differently. When we can feel our bodies, we can truly feel at home…wherever we happen to be. When we have access to our bodies, we don’t need access to the Internet (as much).

When we talk about the body and Taurus, we talk also about mother earth, Gaia. Like the body, when we mine it for resources and artificially amp up its productivity...we fuck it up. Body/Earth gets sick. Body/Earth is not a machine designed for maximum efficiency. It’s wild, intelligent, responsive, process. Your body doesn’t need to look a certain way, and neither does a tomato (have you seen heirloom tomatoes). The best we can do for all WILD-life is get out of its way, and feed it what it wants.

We will need the security of being connected to our safe stable Body/Earth these next two weeks. We have some radical, unpredictable energy zinging around. Some of it looks quite edgy. But, nasty or nice, there are some surprises in the works as retro Mercury gets right up in there with the Uranus/Eris conjunction in Aries. This is a firework-curveball. It’s blindsiding news, and that thing that came from outta nowhere…again, for better or worse. Invest in what you can touch during this phase. It will keep you sane.

New Moon Meditations/Questions:

For the next 2 weeks can you use your mind to serve and listen to your body more? Allow your body to be the boss of you.

Can you distinguish body needs from ego needs?

Do you feed your body based on what your senses tell you they want, or do you make decisions about what to do with your body, based on external goals or to fix psychological states?

Do you do things with your physical body that you'd rather not do to be polite, impressive, or to shut out feeling?

Do you only share caring touch with your romantic partner(s)? Do you forget to touch yourself?

Do you over fortify your bank account or body out of fear of scarcity? Do you under nourish body/bank account (guilt for abundance)?

Is the food you’re eating real food? Are you eating plants that have not been fucked with?

Do you have a stash of money saved up that makes you feel secure? Taurus loves a good cushion.

Do you have at least one space you can visit in your home or office that feels like a sanctuary?

Do you have routine (mindless) stories about your body? Are they even true? Are they as real as the skin you’re in?

READING LIST. SO GOOD. Further meditations on the bod.

Thursday, April 6, 2017

Howling at the full moon Libra. 4/11/17 Call and response.

A fortnight ago the new moon in Aries made a call. How does this Libra full moon respond?

The lunar cycle is a call and response dialogue. The new moon puts something out there, the full moon replies. Sometimes a lack of reply is your reply. Sometimes your action is a choice to refrain from action. All forms of conversation are valid; some are more productive than others at different times. But, the tides turn on the regular. Our environment has a natural rhythm, and is in constant conversation with itself and everything in it, including you. There’s information in these interactions if you choose to participate.

Full moons are culminations. They illuminate, reveal, and sometimes give answers.

There are no “good” or “bad” answers in astrology. Just, “try again,”  “this needs more work, more time,” “change course,” or “congrats, here’s what you earned,”  “lesson learned, proceed to next experience.”

This Libra lunation is all about the transformative journey Venus (ruler of Libra) has been on since March 4th (its station retrograde). Libra is Venus’ intellectual side (Taurus is Venus’ body). Libra rules the concepts of partnership, relationship, transactions, agreements, aesthetics, and decorum. Libra teaches us about give and take, balance, and harmony-- especially about the balance between call and response. The Aries-Libra axis is highlighted for the next 2 weeks, and will show where you’ve been “all call” or “all response.”

As mentioned in the last post, (it's a very retro time, so let's backtrack) I’m Aries through and through. Throughout my childhood up until college I’ve always had a Libra best friend, then it became all about Pisces, but that’s another story. Those close relationships had an Aries- Libra tension. Those of you who do a lot of work with me (my work is all about relationship and conversation…counseling, teaching, consulting) never believe how much Aries I have in my chart. I’ve built a couple of businesses based on my reputation for being rational and measured. Who do you think taught me how to balance?

All those Libra girls in my formative years taught me something about integration. All the times I got my wrists slapped for being crude, provocative, and contrary woke me up to the fact that if I want all the good that comes from collaboration, I’m going to have to check myself.  Oh, I’m still a disruptive motherfucker, and when I go unconscious, the instinct to dominate kicks in. But, I feel better equipped to choose when Aries is appropriate, and when I do choose it, to work it consciously. Again, finding the BALANCE between the two is key. Let’s take food for example: if its too processed, it goes down easy and tastes good, but all the nutrients and anything real gets refined to death. Conversely, if you don’t process some food, at least a little, no one will eat it.

Thank you Libra, for teaching me to cultivate.

Not that Libra is all roses. Here is a typical tiff (written from much experience) between Libra and Aries:

Libra: You’re just causing discord, for the sake of excitement. You’re always trying to prove how different you are.

Aries: Well it’s better than being a superficial phony.

Libra: Just because I actually care about someone other than myself, and want to make things pleasant?  That doesn’t make me shallow. At least people like me!

Aries: They only like you because you tell them what they want to hear. You’re too wishy-washy to take a stance on anything. People need to be challenged!

Libra: I’m not talking to you until you can behave like a civilized adult and show some respect. You’re being ugly.

Aries: PLEASE argue with me. This was just getting interesting.

--And scene--

Venus retro through Pisces (Venus exaltation), Aries (Mars) new moon, Libra/Aries (Venus/Mars) full moon, Venus conjunct Chiron in Pisces square Saturn, Mercury retro through Taurus/Aries (Venus/Mars rulership)…this spring is all about Venus on the therapist’s couch. Yes. We are still dealing with Venus-Mars issues as per last post.

This is an intense (not necessarily unpleasant) evaluation of who we need to be in relationship to others. The lessons, epiphanies, and urges to implement change are coming fast and furious. But, you don’t need to DO anything fast and furious right now. Best way to use this time is to take notes. Lots of planets are shifting into retro this spring. April is a good time for organizing the intel with your journal or your therapist. Keep the back-and-forth going.

And yeah yeah yeah, there is a Mercury retrograde in the mix. I did not forget. It’s just a contributor to this deep meditation on Venus and Aries. Some astrologers do attribute money to Venus’ influence. To put a finer point on it, I like to think of Venus as ruling commerce; the exchange, the trade, the deal. Not an awesome time for those things. Judgment is off and very subjective. Research now; conduct your transactions in May.

Kind of frustrating right now. We’re getting lots of cues to GO, but Venus needs you stop for moment. We’re not QUITE done sorting ourselves out yet. Keep asking the questions. They’ll be answered.

Quick look at Cory’s notes 4/11-4/25:

Full moon Libra conjunct Jupiter retro (This a big feeling aspect. Enjoy! Brimming with love for all mankind! Woohoo! Some of you are gonna get a big sloppy kiss from this full moon, others might be weepy.)

Cardinal T square that involves Juno (This is stressful, but not monstrously so. Totally workable. Curb the urge for aggro action. Go workout, have more vigorous (responsible) sex, go dancing, do live-band-punk-rock karaoke.)

Venus conjunct Chiron in Pisces, square Saturn in Sadge retro (ouch. Old hurts coming up for release. Self soothe, self-care, get thee to thy therapist. Painful reality checks.)

Mars-Ceres conjunction Taurus (Aggressive caretaking. Keep your eye on this co-dependent bug-a-boo. Co-dependency is a Libra watchword too. Feel free to aggressively self-care…especially your bod.)

Merc retrograde Taurus (re-think luxury purchases and new investments, still checking that Aries energy--aggression, impatience, self-interest. We are going to be so over hitting the brakes by summer).