I wish everyone luck this December, including myself. I’m
already getting the business end of this lunation. I’m almost afraid to post
this. But we can’t hide under the bed at every Mercury retrograde or Saturn
transit. We have to take our lumps and LEARN: how to balance realistic thinking with lofty ideals, distinguishing unresolved feelings from logical thoughts, and mindful
communication. The next two weeks are about restructuring the mind and telling fact from fiction. Give yourself and
others extra helpings of time to think and formulate. Slow the internal tempo
down so you can take in new information (that might actually be reformulated
old information) and make needed adjustments.
But wait, isn’t Gemini supposed to be the fleet footed jack-of-all-trades?
The master multitasker and messenger of the divine? Shouldn’t a full moon in
Gemini be a gabfest, a piñata full of gadgets, smooth, fast, multilingual
conversation? Well, sure. That’s one way it could go down on any other Gemini
moon, but not this one.
Here’s what makes this one truly special:
a) It’s
ruled by Mercury retrograde (stationing ON the day of the full moon)
b) Mercury
is in Sagittarius (in its UNhappy place aka its detriment)
c) Mercury
is conjunct Saturn (ruler of the finite, form, and 3D reality)
d) Full
moon is square Neptune (ruler of the infinite, the formless, and fantasy)
This is so complex I’m going speak imagistically about the ways you might experience this:
#1
You’re in the middle of a long corridor. At one end of the
corridor is a perfectly idealized version of love. At the other end of the corridor is a grossly exaggerated representation
of your darkest fears. If you move toward your fears and get a closer look at
them you’re guaranteed a new level of knowledge and self-mastery. There are no guarantees
if you move toward the idealizations (might be everything you hoped for, you might be sorely dissapointed). The ends of each corridor are equally
tempting and horrifying, urging you to move quickly. Oh, and the entire floor
is marble and it’s been doused with soapy water.
#2
Your friends are waiting for you at the beach. It’s a
perfect day. The only route you know has been closed and you’re skeptical about
the detour, but you don’t have any maps with you, your smart phone is dead, and
you’re the only one out on the road. You really want to get to the beach and
you don’t want to worry your friends. You either take a leap of faith and drive
the sketchy looking detour or go back home and get all the navigation tools that you’re used
to using. Do you stick with the original goal and go about it the way you’re used to,
even though it might cost you the day? Or, are you flexible enough to see where
the road you’re on leads, and maybe even decide you want to spend the day
differently?
#3
Someone is saying all the right things to you. They make
total sense. You agree with them. But, you don’t believe them. You don’t trust
them.
#4
A situation doesn’t quite make logical sense to you. You’re not
quite sure it's worth doing. But, you know you need to be in it. It feels right. You trust it.
This full moon trust your bones over your brain. Brain not work so well right now.
When Mercury gets sleepy (read: goes retrograde, gets stuck with
Saturn in Sagittarius) it happens so that other avenues wake up. Emotions, intuition, and senses get woken up and we may be forced to experiment, improvise, create innovative workarounds. Sometimes we get stuck in
patterns of thought, and use habitual thought forms as a crutch. We may tell
ourselves it’s for efficiency, legitimacy, or practicality, but most of the time it’s out
of fear. Fear of the unknown, failure, getting hurt, or disapproval from others. This full moon may point out some of those
habits by denying you access to them. It wants to show you that you are much
more than habit, mindless routine, unquestioned preferences, and unexamined traditions.
Where communication is concerned take nothing for granted. This
is another place we get lazy. If two people are lazy enough with their speaking
and listening, they might not even be in the same conversation. Slow down. Pay
attention. Rushing to judgement on anything right now would be a big mistake. Huge. We are all having useful info about the way we’ve been thinking and
communicating handed to us. Unfortunately it might come in the form of
breakdowns…but it doesn’t have to. If you do find yourself with a breakdown, try living with it. Ditch your old computer,
phone, television habits, communication style, or thought pattern for a while and find another
route. Feel other parts of yourself.
Flexibility and care will get you through the next month.
Bend and the world bends with you.
Bonus points: watch or re-watch The Matrix. Meditate.